Blog Caveat: I am going to make it clear now that this is by no means a dig at all at my ‘mummy’ (and daddy) friends out there and by no means am I not interested in attending and sharing in celebrating the fact any of you are having children and I LOVE that I am part of so many of your lives either as an Auntie, Godmother or a close friend, I do absolutely want to be there but I am just explaining why it feels hard for me.
For those of us who can’t have children, haven’t yet got children or are still single wanting children the invitation to a Baby Shower may be met with a depressed sigh. I was recently contacted by a MRKH girl who was going to her first baby shower and wasn’t sure what to expect and how she would feel. I know over the years I have felt a range of things from sadness, to happiness to numbness following a baby shower attendance and sometimes it can also be related to how you are feeling at the time as to how it might impact you at that moment. I did however share my experiences with her from the now numerous baby showers I have been to, to try and give her some perspective of what it might be like.
For some people though of course a baby shower is totally off the table and something they just can’t get their head around because it is too hard for them and that is totally understandable. Once you are a little more comfortable or have sought the support you need to try and find some solutions to work out the MRKH muddle then they can be manageable if you want to be part of them. Because it’s important to note that of course you don’t have to go, it is a choice to put yourself in that situation. For those of us who are open about MRKH I am sure explaining it to the person would mean they totally understand and respect your decision but my suggestion would be don’t rule it out without at least trying it and if needed have a strategy to leave early if it’s all getting too much. It’s too hard to predict how you will feel until you try but I realize that is very much easier said than done.
For me at least the prospect of a baby shower fills me with dread, it’s like a sinking feeling when someone tells you they are pregnant which ironically happened to me twice yesterday. It’s not that I am not happy for them but it’s just that reminder that I am not at that stage yet and have no idea when that will be and it won’t be a straightforward process when I get there.
They usually involve a number of your female friends, tea, party food which is often heavily cake focused, present giving, lots of feeling the baby move and some really messed up and weird ‘games’ which might include Baby Bingo, Identify the baby food flavour, guess the weight of the baby, pin the dummy on the baby or even Pregnancy/Baby Charades – seeing my wonderful friend, and mother to godchild number 4, at her own baby shower act out the word ‘vagina’ in a game of Charades was however really rather hilarious, particularly in front of her mother.
The last one I went to my friend and I decided that whilst tea is lovely and all, Prosecco is really quite a lot better. So we took a bottle of that with us.
We were the only ones drinking (alcohol), I also sensed we may have been looked at rather oddly or perhaps it was enviousness at our cunning thinking? But to be honest it was a great help, distraction, whatever you would term it, and made it that little bit more bearable. Whilst I don’t condone the use of alcohol as an escape tactic sometimes it is just nice to have a drink and relax – definitely don’t get smashed at a baby shower I can imagine that would be a lot worse and could literally end in tears!
I didn’t feel awkward in saying no to some of the games which I just didn’t really feel happy being a part of and was more than happy to sit and watch everyone else play. That’s not me being a spoilsport but what’s the point in doing something that’s only going to make you feel more unhappy about what is already a rather depressing situation?! I want to be there to support and congratulate my friend but I don’t want it shoved in my face which as you can imagine at a baby shower is rather difficult to avoid so I find it easier to be there and take part in the bits I want to and not feel embarrassed if I don’t want to do something.
When it’s over and I come home, I don’t want to continue to think about the afternoon I have had, I want to do something fun so maybe that’s going out for dinner or having a nice meal at home or going to the cinema but I think it’s important to kind of reward yourself after putting yourself willingly, and I stress again these are things I want to be part of despite how hard they are, into what is always going to be a difficult situation.
I never want people to tread on eggshells around me because of MRKH, I don’t want it treated like a taboo as fertility often is, to the point where people don’t want to tell you things because of it as that quite frankly just makes you feel worse that you aren’t included. Yes it’s hard at times but as I said to a colleague earlier I am used to it now and if I wasn’t then life would be rather depressing given I am part of only a very very small group of my friends who don’t have children. So you do have to learn, as much as possible, to grin and bear it and find a way to manage the sadness when it happens because it is unavoidable.
If needed my personal and draft step-by-step guide is below 🙂
Charlie’s step by step to dealing with a baby shower:
- Take wine (or other alcoholic beverage of your choice) *
- Open wine
- Catch up with friends
- Drink wine
- Play games as preferred and don’t be embarrassed to say ‘No’
- Drink more wine
- Get home
- Do something fun as a reward!
*If you happen to be driving substitute wine with tea and then ensure that 8. Includes wine (or alcoholic beverage of your choice), or if preferred chocolate always helps 🙂